While serving food those who needed it, in my ‘other hometown’ across the globe, I realized the irony but especially the beauty of that moment. Me, serving food to the needy. Me not being one of the needy, as I just had a lovely dinner with new and a little less new friends.
That exact moment made me realize that the past nine weeks of travel made me re-find my stable self after those chaotic years. I think I am now able to say, I am okay. I realized that to heal, sometimes you need to dig deep. Dig deep in yourself. Yet sometimes, healing requires you to break out. Break out and get away from everything you think you are.
And apparently, sometimes, it takes both.
Either way, healing takes a lot of time, a lot of effort, a lot of energy, a lot of tears, a lot of trying over and, albeit reluctantly, it indeed also takes a lot of support.
I am not jinxing this, nor am I making any crazy promises or predictions. I just want to say; I am thankful. For everything (yes, everything!) and everyone in my life, I am thankful.
Happy (late) new year you all!
… And lost all my readers.
Kidding, kidding. Not like I’ve been posting anything to read, anyway!
As you may or may not have noticed, I have been absent from the blogosphere for quite a while now. Apart from a random video and a random comment on others’ blogs every now and then, my blogging mojo as well as my blogging motivation have gone missing. Mostly because I am not doing well, and therefore keeping my life un hold. Which means, basically, I ain’t got nothing to tell. Also, I do not want this blog to become a negative outlet. The only way to change my blogging attitude is to change my life-attitude. And that is by going out and living it, instead of staying inside getting fatter and waiting. Waiting rarely brings anything good, does it?
I know sometimes people say that you will appreciate things more after having to have waited for them. However, life is waiting for you. Your life is waiting to be lived. Not the other way around.
It is time I start following my own words of wisdom. Practice what I preach. In the meantime, you can follow me via this link (or add me on Insta itself), where I do post regularly, mostly to keep my eyes on all the gorgeous things I have seen and done. Most of which I tend to forget about when I feel how I feel right now. So a few times a week I make myself go through personal pictures and post some eye-candy.
Happy three year blogiversary to MundaneBrain
I’ll be the hypocrite with the happy mask tonight. But, even though I don’t feel like I’m on top of the world right now, please know these wishes do come from the bottom of my heart.
May 2013 bring many new highs and highlights. Let whatever holds you down fly, and smile while you’re at it!
I need to leave. Now.
I want my period back. Now. I know how uncomfortable that is when you’re farawayabaroad, in a hot&humid country too busy to care, but; I never felt better than the week I had my period. I can’t explain, but both physically and mentally everything just made sense. Everything was calm. Good. Comfortable.
And now? I’m back on constant stress-binges. I can’t do this anymore. My body doesn’t tolerate it anymore. I threw up a little twice this week. I NEVER throw up, ever. It has happened maybe thrice in my adult-life due to an attack (uh, yeah) and maybe twice more from…err… alcohol. So that’s five times in 10 years. And now two in one week due to binges! What.the. HECK am I doing?!
So I wanna leave now. NOW. Even though I’m scared shitless. Too nervous to return to my faraway loves. Too nervous to get to work in a foreign country, making a fool of myself. Too nervous to be on a trip with 15 ppl I don’t know. Too nervous to appear to be professional, which I am not. Too nervous to feel icky the entire time; to feel too uncomfortable to even want to leave the hotelroom, let alone be producive.
But I need to leave or my body and mind will explode
So, from tomorrow, Ill be gone with the wind (or, with Emirates Airlines, but that sounds a little less poetic) and I hope to return a bit refreshed and re-energized (though I know Ill be absolutely worn.OUT by the time I return. And then Christmas right after? Oh my, book me a bed and a masseuse to bring me back to life after boxing day?)
Ta-ta loveies, Ill be back in 2 weeks.
Malaysia, here I come (again)
As you might have noticed, I’m back. But only slowly adjusting back to real life. So for now, again, I will leave you with some words and a picture of my trip.
Never letting go means losing grip forever.
~ (adjusted from) Soren Kierkegaard
Please, all pictures are mine unless stated otherwise.
Live without limits, Cuba style
Traveling is a way to ask questions you wouldn’t ask at home.
Not about the country, but about yourself.
~Herman de Coninck
“In Istanbul I am beautiful”
(Too bad I am now back home)