How was yesterday’s exercise? Was it hard? Oh man the first time I tried it, I cried and cried. Do you see yourself loving yourself unconditionally in the future?
Today we’re gonna do something scaaareeeey!
15. Make eye contact with a stranger
Actually, I apparently do this all the time. I need nit. And I didn’t realize this was ‘weird’ until different people in different situations/places/countries started to point it out to me. How easily I have contact with others, how come that happens? I thought about it and I guess it’s because I’ve already made contact before I make contact. Let me explain; I make eye contact with everyone, even on the streets. Every completely random passer-by. So when the moment occurs where actual contact is required, I’ve already made that first step; my eyes have already met someone. It also, apparently, makes me very approachable for others. Sometimes this can lead to strange situations, such as drunk and weird people/men approaching me with random things to say, but even that I don’t mind. I don’t feel intimidated very easily, so when I am approached, I just go with it. I can do small talk and then say bye without feeling overwhelmed.
There’s a different kind of eye-contact with strangers. Oooo youknowwhatimtalkingabout! The flirtatious kind! I used to be the master of flirts, seriously. I would walk into a pub and I had a drink waiting before I had even taken off my coat; no problem. But I lost this ‘ability’ (hesitant to call it that, haha) when I got ill. My illness robbed me of all my glow, both internal and external. And I became afraid of flirting, or eye contact in general!. Too conscious of my body and of my raw and exposed soul. And I want to make an effort to get it back. Not because flirting is a live-survivor-skill, but it can brighten a day so much. And it’s not just the flirting itself, it’s a certain care-free, open attitude that I think suits me, but I have somehow lost. Flirtatiousness is not a (conscious) act, it’s a way of self-representation. And today, I dare you to do the same. To try to make this attitude yours; just give it a shot! And tell me what happened!!