I just realized something
(and I realize how strange this’ll sound but…)
I miss me.
And I was going to post a picture of where I felt like me, but then decided not to. There’s many of them. Many happy pictures. Many pictures where I think (with hindsight, and maybe even in that moment) I looked okay. Or even good. But more importantly; where I felt good. Which shows in the picture. But I chickened out of posting them, because I feel so, so, SO far from that right now,so far from good. And I have no idea how to reach it anymore. And browsing through those pictures hurts, so bad. So, so bad.
I miss me,